The Real Deal, Better Late Than Never #MCM Race Recap

I flew down the morning before the race.

I arrived at BWI right at noon.

As it happened, that afternoon was also the Colbert/Stewart Rally to Restore Sanity and/or Fear in DC.

So after to the long, trafficky ride on Bus number 30 to the DC Metro's satellite outpost of GreenBelt Station,

I decided to overshoot the Convention Center (and race registration), to check out the scene on the national mall.

When I got off the train at the National Archives Station, I joined a crushing throng of rally goers -

Like cattle at a slaughterhouse - except the cattle move faster to their gruesome end than we to the exit doors.

Pushing and shuffling and cutting and working to keep claustrophobia at bay, it took about twenty minutes to finally make it up to street level, which was also an all out mob scene.

I'd been reading early reports on the Metro by twitter - estimates that 60, 70, 80,000 were gathered.

By the time I joined the mayhem, there was only about 30 minutes before the rally's official end.

I fought against the flow of departing spectators for several blocks.

Another block and I would have passed the final buildings and had an open view down the mall to the (very) distant stage.

But by then it was 3:30.  I was starving.  I hadn't eaten a real meal since breakfast, had gobbled up all the granola bars and apples I had hastily shoved in my bag.  I knew I wasn't going to fight back into the Metro right there, but would walk the mile + to race registration at the Convention Center.  All in all, not the recommended pre-race routine or predicament.  I decided to turn around and start the long walk.

Even though I didn't get anywhere near the rally stage, or even a jumbotron, I certainly caught the vibe.  And it was actually a pretty great one.  Funny.  Clever.  Random.  Even though inspired by a disgust and disappointment with  the level of vitriol and fear mongering that passes for leadership from many of our public officials, somehow the rally was an incredibly joyful, hopeful scene. Many great costumes.  More great signs.  Some of the more memorable I passed were:

PALIN VOLDEMORT 2012

DON'T BE A DOUCHE 

GREAT PUMPKIN 2012

THIS SIGN IS BIGGER THAN MY PENIS

On the way from the mall to the convention center, every single eatery, from five to no stars, was absolutely packed.  Lines out the door.  So, I just kept going.  By the time I got my number and t-shirt and goodie bag at the Convention Center (also a madhouse), it was close to 4:30.  I inhaled the contents of the bag - sample size bags of sun-dried tomato basil Wheat Thins, yogurt covered super sweet pineapple pieces, mini Cliff Bars.  Soon, with the jumble of nerves and this sample potpourri, I started feeling pretty nauseous. 

A few hours later, I was in Old Town, Virginia, adding more and more walking miles with my step brother, Pat, who had made his way down from Arlington, to spare me a dinner alone the night before my race.  With a 45 minute wait for a table at Bertucci's, we opted for the Light Horse tavern next door, for the pub food approximation of a carbo loading dinner.

By nine o'clock, I was asleep.

And by five A.M., I was wide awake, gearing up in the cold and dark.

At 5:45, I was out the door and walking back to the Metro's Braddock Road Station - where an unusually high concentration of lean, fit, running-gear-clad passengers were congregating.

I sat and chatted with a nice woman from Ontario, Canada, who was also returning for her first marathon after years and years.

We all got off at the Pentagon Station, and joined a new throng on another LONG march, across the Pentagon's parking lot, through security, and into the runner's "village" - which was basically two white tents in the middle of a massive empty parking lot, ringed by lines and lines of porta potties.

Under one of the white tents, they were holding a prayer service.  I walked up to the periphery.  A small band played a lackadaisical rendition (hard to be too fired up at 6:45 AM) of "How Great is Our God." I sang along, while trying to stretch. A calming moment.  It was still pre-dawn dark.  A military chaplain (who was plenty fired up for any hour of the day) took the microphone, offered a brief prayer, quoted Hebrews 12:1, with an emphasis on its end ("run with ENDURANCE"), and shared a five minute homily on "running with a purpose" - one of many reminders why this was called the Marine Corps Marathon.  He challenged us all to discover or recall the purpose for which we were running - and began a list of possibilities with the idea of running for all those serving now overseas, for fallen comrades, for the charities we'd raised money for, and...when he got to, "or to achieve your personal best marathon time," well, my purpose for running this particular race seemed kind of petty.  Still, always appreciate a reminder to live a life of PURPOSE.

As the sun finally appeared, and the start time neared, I shed all but my throwaway long-sleeve t-shirt, and deposited all my other gear in my runner-issue clear plastic bag, with my sticker number 18602 along the side.   I dropped this off in UPS truck number 18 in the line of dozens and dozens of the familiar brown boxes.  Then I joined the throng for the mile-long walk to the start.

After passing under a bridge, I spotted the special, elite, V.I.P. porta potties. I remembered seeing and scanning some email about them.  I don't remember the cost to partake of their just-like-home flushing convenience.  It looked like someone was standing out front passing out hand towels.  There was a long line.

Not five yards past, a line of guys were taking advantages of the semi-private bushes.  I joined them.  "This the V.I.P. area?" I asked.  "It is," said somebody. "You got your ticket?" said another.

Then the rest of the walk to the starting line.  And I tried not to let myself think about how many more than the recommended (i.e., as close to none as possible) pre-race walking miles I had logged since the previous day. I started spotting the banners for projected finish times - 6 hours, kept walking. 5 hours, kept walking. 4 hours, kept walking. And finally stopped with the group in the 3:00 - 3:20 corral. Less than five minutes to the start.  Everyone bouncing, and stretching, and giddy.

To my left, 20 yards away was the starting line MC, beside the official clock, and a stoic guy dressed in plastic looking Grecian garb holding a flaming torch.

At two minutes to go, the announcer launched into a final, melodramatic, gung ho torrent of encouraging and you-go-conquer sort of words that just washed over me and the rest of the crowd.

Then Jill Biden shot a gun.

And OH, SH*T! we were off...

Me and my 550 mostly solitary, and recently mostly in the dark training miles,
and close to 22,000 others (probably over 10 Million training miles between us) finally starting.

My target pace for a 3:15 finish was a 7:26 min/mile.  On that first mile, I wondered how long it would take to calibrate my pace, and whether I'd get an adrenaline boost to overcome the cold, cold early morning and end up with a time buffer from the get go.  No such luck.

I overheard a pair of runners talking about 3:15 as their goal too.  I set my pace off of them.  Until I we passed the first mile marker, and I checked my watch.  7:40.

I picked it up.

The next were a 7:16, then a 7:06, then a 6:59, and a 7:12, and I got to thinking I need to start slowing DOWN.  I won't be able to keep this up (or would I?).

Around mile six, I started running with a guy named Brad.  Also with his name on his shirt.  Also 35.  Also targeting that Boston qualifying time.  And, unlike those two from my first mile, actually on pace - aided by a GPS watch that beeped at us and gave us our pace every half mile.  As we ran, we concocted and tweaked a race plan we thought would get us both to our goal.  A couple minutes ahead by miles 13, 14, 15, we deliberately stepped off the gas, to an easier pace, we thought we could hold.  And we hung together until about mile 20 - Brad is number 28926 beside me in more of these pictures with me than not.  But around mile 20, as we left the cheering crowds, and DC, and the final pairing of "Go Stefan! Yeah Brad!" we'd gotten used to over our nearly two hours together, as we made our way up the gradual ascent of the 14th street bridge, without words between us, over a minute or two, Brad went from running at my side, to five, to ten, to twenty yards ahead.  At one point he turned and flashed a thumbs up, as if to say, "You OK?"  I gave a strong thumbs up right back and waved him on.

I replay that mile in mind, that point when I let go of my goal.  I wonder if maybe I just wasn't tough enough mentally, if that was the mind over body moment I didn't rise to, the push through the wall I didn't pull off.  Maybe that was the point I needed somehow to train harder for, longer for.  Ashley had prepared me with some powerful self talk for just that moment - chief for me, a college rowing workout memory of climbing back on that dreaded ergometer moments after failing to meet a goal, and obliterating it with my lifetime best.  Maybe if I had locked that image of my POWERFUL self in mind just so...maybe then I would have found my pace again on the other side of the bridge.  I still had a solid two minute buffer when we left the district...

Or maybe that was my smartest moment of the whole race when, fighting a stitch in my side across the desolate, wind-swept 14th street bridge, my body said no.  And I said...

OK.

And maybe when I did, I avoided doing serious, permanent damage to myself.

I'll never really know.

What I do know, however, is that, when I gave myself permission to let go of a Boston qualifying time (that goal that had needled me for so many years, having twice come so very close), I was overwhelmed.  As my pace slowed to 8's, then to 9's, then to a final pair of 10+ minute miles, I was utterly overwhelmed - and not with a sense of sadness or disappointment, or even melancholy at the acceptance of the fact my fastest days are now in my past, and that this goal, this silly, sort of arbitrary goal of qualifying for Boston may always be just beyond my grasp.

No, I was overcome by the deepest sense of joy and gratitude -

That of the 22,000 people in this race, I'd somehow connected with this great running partner and new friend;

That old friends Doug and Lindsey, even though they had to navigate the mayhem with their two young kids, managed to meet me and cheer for me and run with me and encourage me, at miles 5, and 8, and 16, and 20, and at the finish;

And for friends Steve and Julissa, and their baby Jessica, who I couldn't help but stop to kiss at mile 23.5. And why not? By then, these were miles to savor, not to dread;

For whoever came up with, and spent the time creating, and delivering, and placing all of those signs for us along the otherwise lonely Hains Point at the race's half-way point.  Some memorable ones:

PUT YOUR MAN PANTS ON

CHUGGING THAT MILK WAS A BAD IDEA


REMEMBER - YOU LOVE RUNNING

WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

IF SARAH PALIN CAN RUN, SO CAN YOU

YOUR FEET HURT BECAUSE THEY ARE KICKING ASS

(and my favorite)

26.2 - BECAUSE 26.3 WOULD BE INSANE!

For the dozens and dozens of absolute strangers who called "GO STEFAN!" along the way - and especially that freckle-faced, braces wearing tween, whose absolute WAIL on STEFAAAAAAAN!!!! was so long and loud and heart-felt and piercing, I couldn't help but smile, and know, at least for a moment, what it must be like to be Justin Bieber (whoever he is);

For a sound mind and able body (in this Marine marathon, there were multiple amputees, rolling themselves along the course, surrounded by their comrades in arms, jogging in solidarity with them.  Sobering and somber and inspiring.  How could I possibly be upset about going a little slower than I'd hoped in my home stretch?)

For Ashley;

For our kids;

For love and for life;

Sort of a cruel joke - though a relatively flat course overall, the last .2 of the 26.2 is up hill

When I finally finished (here's a link to the griping video, with me shuffling across the top of the screen at 3:26:10), one marine wrapped me in a runners blanket.  Another hung a finisher's medal around my neck.

I hobbled my way to the massage station and saw a line of over a hundred going nowhere.  Most of those in line 10K runners.  And I thought, COME ON NOW! and also, forget it.

I walked back up a little hill to a grassy spot in the sun, and I lowered myself to the ground like an 80 year old man.

As I lay there, trying to stretch, one stranger leaned over.  "Are you OK?" she asked.

"Yes," I said.

Then another marine, Max from Chicago, asked, "Want a stretch?" - he'd just finished helping his colleague, who had just run too.

"That would be great," I said, my throat dry, my voice barely audible.

"Looks like you'll have to work on your salt intake," said Max, as he gently but surely stretched one leg, then the other.  And I noticed the film of white all over my arms and legs.

"That's salt, huh?" I said.

"It is," said Max. "It's all over me."

"People are going to start lining up behind me," I said.

"Anyone else is going to have to pay," said Max.

I thanked him, and he left, wiping my salt off his sleeves.

I eased myself to a standing position, and shuffled in to the Verizon tent, only a few yards away from where I had lay down.  They were offering free cell phone calls.

I dialed Ashley, hoping to catch her, and James, and Maya.

I got her voicemail.

Trying to leave a message, my voice trembled.  Tears welled up.

"It's not because I'm sad," I said, "for missing my goal..."

I was just so overcome, so physically and emotionally spent.

It is hard to put into words.


"You did it, Daddy!" said James, running to meet me at the airport in Boston, "You got the medal!"

I told him I won.

He never doubted it.

I put the medal around his neck.  "Do you like it," I asked?

"I like it," he said. "I like it very much."

Monday, I let him wear it to school.

"My Daddy won this in the marathon!" he announced to his teachers, greeting him and me at the door to his classroom.

"Wow," they said.

Wow.

And that

was

that.




Photo Credits by Creative Commons Attribution License:
"Restoring Sanity Rally Signs" by Mike Sheridan